This doctor’s thread about the Grenfell tragedy is ‘beautifully written and utterly devastating’
This thread from a doctor who treated some of the victims of the Grenfell fire went viral today on the first anniversary of the terrible tragedy.
In the words of writer and historian Greg Jenner, it’s ‘beautifully written and utterly devastating’.
1.
Trigger warning: (#Grenfell)
"Wake up, your phone keeps buzzing."
14th of June, 2017. 3:39 AM
I sat up, I was not on call, I looked at my phone. Two missed calls and a text from NHS-NoReply
I dialed the given number and punched in the code, rubbing my eyes.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
2.
"What is it?"
"Major incident, fire in West London apparently." I replied. Heading out of bed to the shower as my wife headed to the kitchen, turning on the TV on the way.
The tepid water woke me up, it was a hot, humid night.
"How bad is it?" I shouted.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
3.
"Bad. Really bad. Go."
I grabbed the coffee she handed me and jumped in the car. I caught a glimpse of BBC news on the way out.
Growing up in Hong Kong I've seen high rise fires. This was nothing like what I've seen before.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
4.
4:20 AM
The streets were empty, the occasional couplet of fire engines and police rush past me.
Inside the hospital, there was no chaos, no shouting, the emergency dept consultants were in, I joined my colleagues at the briefing.
At that point, we had 40 consultants in.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
5.
We had medical consultants clearing the wards of patients ready for discharge, resus was busy and filled with sick patients. I was assigned to the urgent care centre, to help treat P3 patients.
I joined my colleagues there, as patients streamed in.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
6.
Seeing and treating injuries and smoke inhalation that day, hearing the stories of escape, the frightened looks, the quiet dignity of the residents, was harrowing. But nothing compared to the horrors they've witnessed.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
7.
Injured fire crew were brought in, after treatment, their first question was "Can I head back out?"
One firefighter kept saying, "The whole thing went up, it's not supposed to do that. It's not supposed to do that."
Their bravery was humbling.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
8.
One police officer later told me he had to use a riot shield to protect firefighters running into the building from burning debris, and falling people.
We had little experience on this volume of smoke inhalation in London. Critical care beds were quickly cleared.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
9.
Patients with smoke inhalation can deteriorate quickly, going from a P3 (walking wounded) to P1 (immediate) within moments.
We had to react quickly, gathering available supplies of steroids, nebulisers, deciding who could go home, who needed to stay.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
10.
One thing that stuck with me that day, the smell. A terrible, sweet, burnt smell that was everywhere, on the patients, on our clothes, on the wards.
I still can see that night if I smell a bonfire.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
11.
I remember at 2pm, I sat in the ward office, The first time I sat down and rested til then. I had eaten half a sandwich, and I dozed off for 10 minutes, Grenfell visible from our window, still smouldering.
I wondered how many more were inside, how many more were coming.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
12.
Three and a half hours, we were stood down.
I remember driving home in silence, the smell still on me, I wanted to cry, for the survivors, for those who died in that most terrible way, but there were no tears. Just a deep, silent sadness.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
13.
That was our third major incident that year, it would not be our last. Then we slipped into a harsh winter.
Some months later, I remember walking home from the station, I had my headphones on, listening to a Spotify recommend playlist.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
14.
A song came on, at the time I didn't know what it was, and a line went:
"Good-bye today
I'd ask you to be true
Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you"
The stories I heard came flooding back, how they died going back for loved ones, to save others.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
15.
I burst into tears, weeping on the side of a street on the other side of London. People passed, looking uncomprehendingly, as I sobbed.
For all the victims
For all the survivors
I'm sorry, we did our best, I promise
Next time, we'll be even more ready#GrenfellTowerFire— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
Here’s how people responded online.
Thank you for being a doctor and a hero.
— Ever Dashing Dancer (@depresseddancer) June 13, 2018
Definitely not a hero, the survivors, the first responders, the victims, they're the heroes.
— Philip Lee (@drphiliplee1) June 13, 2018
I too think you are hero Dr Philip, you, your colleagues, the emergency services, etc are all heroes. Thank you for sharing your story. ❤️
— TheGirlWithTheBird (@_Yehcaep_) June 14, 2018
There cannot be a next time. #nhs
— LeeRobson (@LeeRobson) June 14, 2018
